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Poetry

Just some thoughts in word form

Table of Contents

2/24

I still wish for you on every eyelash

seeking calmer days a moment’s rest is broken by skull kid girl

11/23

slowly slipping away i’m begging it to stay but I need it to go

10/23

I worry for a second that we might not make it. I look up, we smile, and I realize how dumb that thought was.

warm midday slumber party it feels like we could spend an eternity just being us

almost done or maybe not whatever

if my life was a McDonalds order, I’d defintely order a small fry with it

it would be an honor to be woken up by your midnight stirrings

I can’t tell which one is the waiting when I am without you or when I am with you

the world keeps spinning the closer we are the slower it gets

9/23

The first time I met you I forgot how to imagine my life without you in it

bar lit lip biting our thick personal fog didn’t we just meet

first a blanket then a crack then nothing at all

6/23

Like the leaves and the wind. We need each other but we aren’t sure why.

All these books, but all I want to read is the story of us

My heart is full of holes one the shape of you cut into an unperfect whole the empty space just as meaninful as what remains i wonder each time what will convince me to let the next person take their piece Remember we are not just what is left but also what we have lost. We don’t exist only within ourselves but inside the ones who love the pieces we gave them

Not many people have really seen me. There’s not many who would care if I stopped, if I changed, if I didn’t try as hard, if I stopped loving this way, if my fire went out. You are one of the few who saw me for who I am. Who looked through and let me let you see the brilliance I hold in side. The parts of me I keep to myself because I know they’d use them against me. The confused, scary, loving, fearful, anxious and beautiful parts. I am scared that I lost you because I know what parts of me you take with you. I’m scared that I lost you because I know what parts of you I take with me. I’m scared that I lost you

Swimming without you I can remember how it felt Watching you try not to drink the salt water Listening to you ask me to marry you Water land is no fun on your own

The air is so thick I can feel it on my skin Unfortunately that reminds me of you The water is so cool but I am alone in it The water reminds me of you The wind in the trees sounds like your breath on my ear The cars on the street hold the smiles of happy couples holding hands Unfortunately they remind me of you I can’t stop reading a book I know you’ll love Unfortunately that reminds me of you My hands feel empty my heart so fucking heavy Unfortunately that reminds me of you

5/23

though it’s quiet out i hear your voice on the wind always

she was the waves and i was the beach

parking next to me metaphorically and literally waiting for you to come back

pretending not to care but i can still smell you

she’s something lovely it’s so bright outside despite the gloom

3/23

pull back the haze make me who I want to be not who I am

I’ll be asleep before the food gets here Never done this first time for it She hums while we wait for it to pass through Its just the life we live not fair

lately I been feeling like a middle child forced to be creative for attention

metaphorically me ta phor ic al ly

2/23

maybe not forever but definitely today as long as possible

1/23

Marry me, marry me We’ll buy a house in the country With a porch 3 kids and a dog We will sell furniture, yarn And maybe video blog about it from everything I know about you and everything I will learn you’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met have a happy 27th year happy birthday love Mike

maybe not forever but definitely today as long as possible

You know this already My heart is yours to break Godamnit Yankee

12/2022

Well I don’t really know what to say I’ve only really known you for 3 months But it’s felt like so much longer

10/2022

midnights, cigarettes awful ideas behind brown eyes godamnit yankee

midnights, cigarettes stupid jokes with new friends drinking with yankee

brown eyes, big smile pizza desperate for more

9/2022

morning cold burning into warmer days

complex headaches relive last night slowly the joyful coaster

8/2022

do i want to know drunk me avoiding drunk you crave quiet places

another drunk text not sure i will ever learn crave quiet places

can help but hear it space between your sentences crave quiet places

Before that

could talk forever maybe someday we’ll run out then what

bent never broken goodnight sleep well i love you everyday always

fallen but we grew i really love you for life seven years always